church update :>

Alright, things are moving nicely with the little gadgets I'm picking up for this blog. Newest addition is my viewers can actually hear what I have typed in case they like to look at something else for a moment. Search for a microfone under each post to try it out. Pressing it will launch a new window that will read the post to you in mp3 format.

new language courses

So I got Rosetta Stone language courses and it seems pretty impressive so far. I am taking 3-4 lessons a day on Dutch, Spanish and German. I never been able to concentrate listening to language mp3's. People in my life like to disturb me while I try to get anything done. Using this program the distractions don't matter much cause I can pick up exactly where I left off.
So I guess this one is about self improvement. Got to try to improve what we can when the distractions of the world aren't bearing down on us. Not to impress,or to feel better about our selves but to keep momentum up.

woot for free movie screenings

Looking forward to getting together with josh,melanie and josh. planning on going to see the new paranormal movie on this thursday 24th.
the trailer looks good but im more excited to hang with good friends
I know I said friends are a distraction and we should stay on target but it has been long over due for me to emerge from my reclusive state. to take in life again. just for a little while. should be a great time :> gunna try to leave my chemical imbalance behind.

Update- new music

the fray- you found me song on here
hope you enjoy

I found God
On the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
Was all but won
All alone
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where you been?"
He said, "Ask anything".

Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
It never rang
And all I needed was a call
It never came
To the corner of First and Amistad

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who's ever known
Who I am
Who I'm not, who I wanna be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me


Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

Early morning
The city breaks
I've been callin'
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
Ya never send me no letters
You got some kinda nerve
Taking all my world

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
Why'd you have to wait?
To find me, to find me

taking it slow

Not sure if it is the time of year or getting older but i seem to be winding down. I started getting tired alot earlier then I used to.
While I was out walking in the cool night I looked up at the stars and wondered how many more battles I must face in life. How many more of God's tests are coming my way to prepare me for the next place.



“It does not matter how
slowly you go, so long as
you do not stop.”
—CONFUCIUS

More on distractions

Distraction is the diversion of attention of an individual or group from the chosen object of attention onto the source of distraction. Distraction is caused by one of the following: lack of ability to pay attention; lack of interest in the object of attention; greater interest in something other than the object of attention; or the great intensity, novelty or attractiveness of something other than the object of attention. Distractions come from both external sources (physical stimuli through the five senses), or internal sources (thought, emotion, fantasy, physical urges). Divided attention, as in multitasking could also be considered as distraction in situations requiring full attention on a single object (e.g. sports, academic tests, performance). -taken from wiki.com

"In mans unending pursuit of salvation the distractions of his science or his religion may be the vary thing keeping him from his creator." - taken from The Outer Limits

Stay on Target

rediscover ancient and alternative spiritual traditions as resources for the present and future

There is no middle ground...
... Our faith must be passionately focused on our spirit, or we become earthbound, caught up with concerns, pleasures and friends who will inevitably fail us.

I could drone on and on about our society as a whole but that would only give you more to worry about.

We really need to think about what we spend our time doing. refreshing web pages like myspace to see that next all important comment from someone just as bored as we are is not the way for us to progress.

there must be a better way for us to spend our lives.

I could drone on and on about our society as a whole but that would only give you more to worry about.
How about self improvement? why not read up on a few foreign languages? Or find a productive hobby that exercises our minds?
Lets get some self worth and maybe some true value as human beings.
"The future depends on what we do in the present." - Mahatma Gandhi

rain and friends

Rain reminds me of friends in the sense that they both come and go and reappear just when you least expect them to.

"fate determines who walks into your life
you determine who you let walk out
who you let stay
and who you refuse to let go"
- Unknown

Not sure about this quote but its halfway right. I lost a lot of good people in my life and most of them I fought to keep. But they are still gone and i sit here remembering them everyday. thinking if I should contact them again and feel like a fool when they fail to reply yet again.

got to start some where :>

Well it has certainly been a long summer, just about to enter my favorite season. (fall) I can already feel the crisp air early in evening. Perfect time to start wearing hoodies again. I have really grown and learned alot about myself and a few others. One of them I thought was a friend,one who could be relied on and trusted. Turns out I was sadly mistaken with her. I wish her the best and I'm shamed to admit I pray I never cross paths with Tabbi again.

Life can be overwhelming at times and seem like there is no hope. But this summer has shown me sometimes the unbearable is best experienced with no one to rely on or to turn to. Learning what battles to face on your own is what sets us apart I think. Everyone needs to take some time on their own to deal with the problems that face them. Its more of a blessing when someone steps in and lends a hand then.